.....we finally brought Kalea home from the hospital. It's a trip. To say I remember this day like it was yesterday wouldn't be accurate. Although the memory of this day was wonderful and amazing and vivid I have to admit it was a little bit of a blur.
I remember being so excited and soooo ready to leave that hospital and NEVER go back. I was also terrified that i couldn't care for her the way all the nurses and doctors had. I was so scared that something would happen and she would stop breathing or that she wouldn't thrive and have to be re-hospitalized. I was kind of robbed of the normal experience of bringing a newborn home. By the time Kalea came home she was 2 months old and she only weighed 6 lbs. There was some post traumatic stress I was still dealing with. To be honest it still creeps up every now and then.
BUT this day was the day I had been dreaming about and waiting for, for so long!! We are so blessed by her presence in our lives. And even though I completely doubted my skills as a mother I finally figured it out with the help of my husband and my parents. ;)
The last year has been nothing but amazing. Tim and I decided we are going to celebrate Kalea's "Un-Birthday" every year. We are going to do something fun to celebrate this day;)
Today he is at work but tomorrow we are going to the drive in movie theatre as a family;) The 20th was her original due date anyways;)
What a difference a year can make!!!
If right now you are in the midst of something that just seems so overwhelming I beg of you, to hold on. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. No matter how dark and scary it might be.
It is ALWAYS darkest before the dawn. Hang in there. The Lord can perform miracles in a split second. Imagine what he can do in a year?!!?
LOOK what he did for us in just one year!
So grateful for my Bright Kalea Grace... so very very very grateful. My how far she has come <3
2 comments:
What a beautiful gift of love, life, and experiences your sweet Kalea brings into your lives. I agree that it's always darkest before the dawn and what a true difference an hour, a day, a year, or five years can make when the light finally begins to shine over the horizon.
It's crazy to read this now because just tonight I was telling my mom your story with Kalea. I am so uplifted by your family!
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