I am so anxious for Tim to get out of the Navy that I am sick with the Itis...
Ya know that feeling you have when you are at the tail end of something and it is just dragging and you feel like you are going NUTZ!!!!!
Yeah I am feeling like that.
I really am grateful for my experience here in New England but it just isn't home and I know that deep down. I know we won't be staying here and so I just feel so unsettled.
It's really getting to me. I just want to move on to the next step so bad. BUT instead here I sit feeling stuck in a 4 foot mud pit. I can't move and any tiny movement I make takes forever and is exhausting.
I feel like I am ready to attack a few problem areas in my life but I can't do it because it will all get screwed up when we move anyways.
Like my photography. I am so ready to have a stable, legitimate business with a steady flow of clients and work. I want to have a name and logo I am comfortable with and my friend Val to be my partner in crime. I am literally working for free if I do work and it's so depressing.
I also need help from someone or something to help me get healthy. I am so miserable. My self esteem is next to nothing and I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. My feet hurt CONSTANTLY, my back hurts CONSTANTLY and I just don't feel like moving. I have NO energy whatsoever. I know the only way to get energy is to move. So pretty much they cancel each other out.
I fall into these viscous cycles and I just can't seem to get out.
I hate blogging about such negative things all the time. I just don't know really how to overcome all this. I hate waiting around for the next step but that seems like that's all I can do for now.
7 comments:
I am so sorry sweetie...I remember feeling this way when we had decided that Nathan was getting out of the Navy. (When we moved from RI to UT) The last few months DRAGGED like a granny in a broken wheelchair. It's hard to want to put roots down when you know you'll have to rip them up so soon...and especially when you aren't in a spot you really want to put down roots anyway.
I would make a list of all the things you want to do in NE before you leave. Search the web, ask around...just pretend like you're on an extended vacay in your charming NE second home and you'll be returning to normal life in a few months.
(P.S. I found out Space A flights go from Bangor, Maine to Rota, Spain and then to Naples, Italy...just sayin)
And as far as the health stuff...I CAN HELP!!!! After the changes I've made in the last 35 days I feel like a new woman. Younger, healthier, lighter, less stressed...and HAPPIER. Skype me!!
I love you, I love you, I love you. I understand the pain cycle and energy battle. It's horrible. Did I mention I love you?
Shannon I would LOVE to help you get healthy. Why don't you and I do this together? I have a ton of yummy recipes that I have started making. I was doing so good then after my last miscarriage my healthy eating has gone down hill. Please email, text or call me and we can chat!
Feeling really good on this healthy eating diet I'm on. Its high protein balanced with healthy carbs...I'll pass along everything I'm learning from actual professionals in my blog. Hopefully, it will help. also, the injuries your dealing with....I've had them all, I can help there too. Your mom is a great source of knowledge too...trust her! Its hard to be short...thirsty last few months are tough but they'll be over before you know it! If theres anything I can do please let me know
Auntie Tammy
Feeling really good on this healthy eating diet I'm on. Its high protein balanced with healthy carbs...I'll pass along everything I'm learning from actual professionals in my blog. Hopefully, it will help. also, the injuries your dealing with....I've had them all, I can help there too. Your mom is a great source of knowledge too...trust her! Its hard to be short...thirsty last few months are tough but they'll be over before you know it! If theres anything I can do please let me know
Auntie Tammy
Feeling really good on this healthy eating diet I'm on. Its high protein balanced with healthy carbs...I'll pass along everything I'm learning from actual professionals in my blog. Hopefully, it will help. also, the injuries your dealing with....I've had them all, I can help there too. Your mom is a great source of knowledge too...trust her! Its hard to be short...thirsty last few months are tough but they'll be over before you know it! If theres anything I can do please let me know
Auntie Tammy
Feeling really good on this healthy eating diet I'm on. Its high protein balanced with healthy carbs...I'll pass along everything I'm learning from actual professionals in my blog. Hopefully, it will help. also, the injuries your dealing with....I've had them all, I can help there too. Your mom is a great source of knowledge too...trust her! Its hard to be short...thirsty last few months are tough but they'll be over before you know it! If theres anything I can do please let me know
Auntie Tammy
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