REAL Life....

So I guess I really haven't updated to much on our daily lives and our plans. So I figured I would let you all in on our real lives here in the New Year.
Well as for Tim, he is still in charge of EVERYTHING at work... I swear he is gonna be bald by 30. He is under lots of stress and pressure but like always he mans up and handles is sooo well. He has been working on gettin his car up and running for about 3 weeks now too. It seems like when he fixes one thing something else breaks, and he doesn't have the sufficient time to really work on it because of his schedule. Luckily we only have 3 years left in the Navy and left in SC. I am really looking forward to DEC of 2012... ahhh to be a civilian and have weekends off. But other than all those stresses, Tim is doing pretty well. We try to spend as much time together as possible. We still really like each other after almost 5 years;)
As for me I am working on a few personal things right now. I didn't enroll in school because I thought we would be bringing a baby home in April and I didn't want it to interfere. BUT that's ok cuz I am not sure I could really handle the stress of school right now anyways. Especially since we are only working off of one car. I quit my job at American Eagle because it was just to far to drive for only a few hours a week. BUT I really need to get a job so we can save some money for...well... of course a baby. So as soon as Tim gets his car back up and running I am gonna try to get another job.
I am also working on a few personal resolutions. Well as some of you might have seen on FB, I am trying to get super duper healthy. Its not bad so far. I got a spin bike and have been getting back into that, which I enjoy very much. It makes me feel really good. I have been tryin to eat things that are natural and from the earth. More fruits and vegetables and whole grains and such. Anyways my goal with that is to just be as healthy as possible to hopefully carry a baby. I don't care about how much I weigh, I just want to know I am doing all I can to be as healthy as possible. AS of now I feel committed to that, because well it is only January;) but I am determined to stick with it and I know I can if I believe that I can.
I am really gonna try also to get our Photo business off the ground this year. I really need to get business minded and quit giving everything away for free;)
ANYWAYS.....
So as far as future plans go we are looking forward to a few things. Of course most of you know our ultimate goal is to be parents and we are hoping its our year. Our infertility doctors are doing all they can to find out why I miscarry all my pregnancies. They did find that I have a blood mutation that causes miscarriage. I have blood clotting factor and that doesn't surprise me because it runs in my family. BUT the good thing is that they can fix that, so we are hopeful this spring we can finally get there. I am not gonna say I am not scared though. The thought of having to experience a 4th miscarriage is terrifying. Despite the fears though we have to try. Especially after how dissapointing it was to go through the last miscarriaage and then to not have the adoption work out. I try not to think about it, but really most the time not a day goes by that I dont feel weird about everything that happened. I know that we were listening to Heavenly Father and that we made the right choice, but its sill hard to think of what could have been if other outside people involved didnt manipulate the situation. Oh man that gets under my skin... I belive that if it would have been between just us and the birth mom that it would have happened the wasy it was supposed too.... anyways thats a whole other post.
Anyways hopefully we will also get a good tax return and be able to maybe get away for a week or so. Ever since we have been married we have always spent all out extra pennies on visiting home and infertility. So we are going to try to save some extra money to maybe take a cheap carnival cruise. They have pretty sweet deals for military,like 300 bucks for 7 day cruise... if that is possible we will probably try to work that in. MAN I Need a Vacation. Sometimes the stress just builds and builds and going somewhere to re-coop is necessary.
Another possibility we are looking forward to is Tim getting a day staff position at work. That would be glorious.. oh so glorious!!! But he is so stinkin good at bein in charge so they don't want to let him go from where he is at.. well pray for us anyways!!
Well I am sure this post is super boring but I just wanted to let you know where we are headed.. well hopefully;) Thanks for caring and reading about our lives!!! There are so many people who read my blog that I don't get to see very often and I just want you all to know I love you and miss you and thanks for caring about me to read what were up to;) I am blessed.