It's really crazy to think that it has been a whole year since the scare of Kalea coming early. I have so many crazy mixed emotions about it. It seems like light years away but it also seems like yesterday. That was the scariest and probably the most traumatizing thing I have ever experienced. Up until that point I only had to worry about my own health. Let me tell ya.... worrying about your child's health/ life is scarier than any health problem that can happen to your own body.
I was so blessed to have my rock and my husband by my side. My mom and sister were also there keeping me sane and calm. what would I do with out them? Kelly even came to the hospital and gave me a pedicure. She gave me a pedicure on my wedding day also to keep me calm. I don't know why she is ok touching my nasty tater tot toes but she is and I am so grateful. Taking care of someone's feet has to be the most unselfish special thing. Seriously. Feet are in general pretty nasty and to wash and groom someone's foot is pretty unselfish. It just proves how much she loves me;) I also had the best doctors and nurses in the whole country watching over me and Kalea. I really feel that these people do the Lord's work. How else could they have orchestrated and executed without flaw. They were our angels. I was also lucky to have my mom there because she is my personal nurse. It blows my mind how she can take off the mom cap and put on the nurse cap to help me through. She can switch between roles in the blink of an eye and right when it's needed. I don't know how she kept her cool but she did and it kept me calm.
I remember being in the hospital when the captured Bin Laden. The nurse came running in and asked if we had heard. I was thinking "ummmm don't really give a crap about Bin Crapen right now" but I am glad she wanted to keep us informed;)
I didn't know what was ahead of me but somehow I knew everything would be alright in the end. Looking back it was pretty traumatizing and I am pretty sure I have some residual issues from being faced with my child's mortality. BUT luckily the joy of having her in my life perfect and healthy and getting in to everything makes all that pain seem so far away.
It's so cliche but it's true. They grow up way too fast and before you know it you blink and your 2 lb. baby is now a little ball of crawling/ almost walking energy that you can't contain.
Kalea is such a spit fire. She wants to do it her way. She gives me a run for my money in everything but I wouldn't have it any other way. I can't wait till she's older and we can put her spunky but into Krav Maga classes. She will be so awesome at it. Well I know she will be awesome at anything she does. She is so smart. She already loves books and learning things. She loves bright colors and the occasional cartoon. She is so curious about her environment and wants to check everything out. She is still my little snuggler and loves to be close to us. I rock her to sleep every night and I love it. It works for us. She LOVES other kids and babies. It's so funny.... when someone is laughing she thinks she should so she does this little fake laugh to make sure she is laughing with everyone. I love it.
Anyways I had no idea that she would be so fun;) I had no idea that I could love someone so much. She really is my Bright Grace.... My Kalea Grace. This past year has been the hardest but BEST year of my existence and I wouldn't trade a minute. Makes me wonder where we will be in another year!!
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